I still have time to blog.

Another week at the new job proves to be more eventful than the last two holiday weeks but still not much for me to do. I had a bigger part in the clinics and have been to a few meetings and now have the duties of making the breakfasts for the participants. But still, some days there is just nothing to do. For instance, Monday, I got to work at 6:30AM for our 7AM clinic. (We have to be there 30min before our first participant.) We had a busy day as far as clinics go. Clinic was over at around 12:15 and then I went to lunch with my mom. After lunch I came back to my office and had nothing to do the rest of the day. So I read this book I have been trying to finish since summer. I read from about 1:15 to about 5:45. At around 5:45 the lights in my office suit went out. It wasn’t the power because my computer was still on. But the light went out and it was very dark and scary because I was the only one left still here. I took that as my queue to leave. I went home and to bed. The next day was definitely more productive. Still, my day wasn’t packed. I’m not sure it ever will be. On Tuesdays I go teach private voice after work. My students were all back this time. So, I was exhausted when I got home. Today in clinic we only had one participant scheduled and my boss wanted me to take him to get practice. I think it went well and I feel good about it. Our participants are very nice and understanding. It makes this learning process very easy.

I’ve been seeing my last love quite often. He tells me that things are on the right track to start seeing each other again. We are practically together already without the title. I still wonder if he’s just keeping me along until he finds someone better. I hope that’s not the case because I and head over heals for him. I just don’t want to get hurt again. I was devastated when he broke up with me this summer. I didn’t eat for a week and I cried when I went to sleep at night and I cried when I woke up the following morning. I don’t want to go through that again. I’m just not strong enough to say this isn’t a good idea. I do want to get back together. I want things to workout. I want him to be sweet to me like he is now. I want that all the time. I think I’m good enough for it. But we will see what happens.

I don’t know where my roommate has been. She hasn’t been at the house in the past 6 weeks, except maybe for a couple of nights. And when I say a couple I mean 2, the exact meaning of the word couple. Hmm. I don’t know.

Well, time for a meeting.